Why is it, I pondered as I lay crying in bed last night for the 16th month in a row, that not only do I have to get my period.. but to add insult to injury it hurts in a physical and emotional way.
What cruel kind of system is it when we are heartbreakingly reminded of our non-pregnant status by a tearing uterine cramp?
My medicine free cycles are now over. I began taking Glucophage last night and whilst I was spared the GI upsets (so far!), the headaches/ hot flushes etc are not be believed. I am currently on Glucophage, prenatal vitamins, Clomid and will soon have a trigger shot.
I also have a co-worker who is due any day and does not stop yapping away about her damn baby. She knows my situation and still it is all we hear about- I cannot help thinking if the situations were reversed I would be far more sensitive.
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A 30 year olds unwelcome (SIF in)fertility journey...
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About Me
The sad (and not so sad) truth:
10/06: Off BCP
11/06: Actively trying
07/07: Start thinking 'Oh oh.. maybe there's a problem'
01/08: Problem confirmed. Diagnosis: PCOS
02/08: Mission: Get woman with polycystic ovaries pregnant.
03/08: IUI+ 100mg Clomid
04/08: BFP! Beta #1= 45; Beta #2= 117; Beta #3= 2177; Beta #4= 4099; Beta #5= 13,415; Beta #6= 30,880
04/22/08: Measuring 6w1d, BPM: 134
04/28/08: Measuring 7w1d, BPM: 140 approx
05/02/08: Measuring 8w
11/06: Actively trying
07/07: Start thinking 'Oh oh.. maybe there's a problem'
01/08: Problem confirmed. Diagnosis: PCOS
02/08: Mission: Get woman with polycystic ovaries pregnant.
03/08: IUI+ 100mg Clomid
04/08: BFP! Beta #1= 45; Beta #2= 117; Beta #3= 2177; Beta #4= 4099; Beta #5= 13,415; Beta #6= 30,880
04/22/08: Measuring 6w1d, BPM: 134
04/28/08: Measuring 7w1d, BPM: 140 approx
05/02/08: Measuring 8w
12/08/08: Bed rest due to very low amniotic fluid
12/09/08: Begin induction due to poor fetal growth & low amniotic fluid
12/10/08: BB born at 09:25 weighing 6lbs 5oz
12/2008-06/2011: Nothing doing reproductively at all.
06/2011: Failed clomid/IUI #1 cycle (new RE)
07/2011: Failed Gonal-F/IUI #2 cycle (new RE)
10/2011: Failed IUI#3 Gonal-F- back to where I got PG with DS
02/2012: IUI #4- PLEASE????? Cancelled. Re-start in March.
03/2012: IUI #4take 2- PLEASE??????????
1 comment:
Totally. It's bad enough that we have to deal with horrible cramps every month. It makes it 10 times worse when it is just a very painful reminder of what we want so badly and are missing.
I've been surrounded by 2 pregnant women at work the last couple of months. One of them is now 2 days past her due date and all anyone could talk about over the last 3 weeks was who was betting on which day she would give birth. They think it's fun.
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